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Harakiri for the Sky
Members | |
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Current | |
M.S. | All instruments (2011-present) |
Member(bands): Bifröst, Exartet, Anomalie (live), Karg (live), Schattenlicht (live) | |
J.J. | Vocals (2011-present) |
Member(bands): Karg, Lûs, Seagrave, Hoffnungstod, Five Minute Fall, Small Night Searching, Schattenlicht (live), Schabbock | |
Current (Live) | |
Thomas Dornig | Bass (2012-present) |
Member(bands): Anomalie, Dismal Lumentis | |
Marrok | Guitars (rhythm), Vocals (backing) (2012-present) |
Member(bands): Anomalie, Agrypnie (live), Schammasch (live), Selbstentleibung, Tulsadoom, Heretoir (live), Noctiferum (live), The Vision Bleak (live), Panzerhass | |
Mischa | Drums (2013-present) |
Member(bands): Asathor, Tulsadoom | |
Paul Färber | Drums (2018-present) |
Member(bands): Nekrodeus, Norikum, Ellende (live), Rectal Rooter | |
Past (Live) | |
Morbus J | Drums (2012-2013) |
Member(bands): Schattenlicht, Karg (live), Schabbock | |
T. Martyr | Drums (2014) |
Member(bands): As Vampiric Shades and Belial Winds, Groteskh, Irdorath, Isiulusions, Vargsriket, Véhémence, Wallachia, Dying Embers (live), Nocturne (live), Horns of Hattin (live), Lychgate (live) | |
Vlad Purice | Bass (2017-2018) |
Member(bands): Valkyrja, In Slaughter Natives (live), Ondskapt, Diabolical (live), Fides Inversa (live), IXXI (live), Mystruin (live), Nominon (live), Vena Cava, Open Fire, Rome (live) | |
Daniel Fellner | Bass (2017) |
Member(bands): Devastating Enemy, Ethos (Aut) | |
Christoph Grabner | Drums (2017-2018) |
Member(bands): Artas, Mynskh | |
Torsten | Vocals (2018) |
Member(bands): Agrypnie, Nocte Obducta, Anomalie (live), The Wreckage of Erebus, Heretoir (live), Asaru (live), Area 51 |
# | Discography | Type | Year | |
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1 | Harakiri for the Sky | Full-length | 2012 | Show album |
2 | Aokigahara | Full-length | 2014 | Show album |
3 | Wooden Tape Box | Boxed set | 2015 | Show album |
4 | Calling the Rain | Single | 2016 | Show album |
5 | III: Trauma | Full-length | 2016 | Show album |
6 | Arson | Full-length | 2018 | Show album |
7 | Mære | Full-length | 2021 | Show album |
Harakiri for the Sky
Album versions
Release date | Label | Catalog ID | Format | Description |
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October 23rd, 2012 | AOP Records | OAP023 | CD | Digipak |
July 22nd, 2013 | AOP Records | 12" vinyl | Limited edition |
Members | |
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
Tracks | |||
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1. | Lungs Filled with Water | 07:50 | Show lyrics |
Capture the horizon, dry tears with stale wine, try to turn thoughts into letters, scream as loud as you can! This empty streets seem like a grace of wounded hearts to me, just a few hours more to come and they’ll enter their long expected target. An unending story of renunciation, my sacrifice, once offered to this dying love as my last, final gift. In sooner days we thought, that in forgetting we could set ourselves free, and you know as well as I do, that from now on, there’s nothing that can stop me anymore... The ones who live by hope, will soon die by disappointment, so let’s stop pretending, you know it was the best decision to part our ways. Farewells can get quite nasty, that’s why I disappeared silently, to say good bye is still the best information we can ever share. An endless dawn slowly fades the end of the night, as former enstrangement again defeats me from behind. There’s no denying, that without you I’m nothing, but also with you I am still alone... FUCK THIS BROKEN HEART! The distance between us feels as far as an ocean, when I attempt to traverse it, the raging waves wash me back ashore. I tried so hard to reach the other side, but I lost consciousness, ’cause I don’t know how to breathe, when my lungs are filled with water... |
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2. | 02:19 AM, Psychosis | 07:37 | Show lyrics |
This city is a no man’s land and I’m in the middle, still stuck somewhere between last night and disturbing dreams. Lost in locked up rooms, these walls feel like a casket, from one moment to the other the dreams become my life. Silent tappings keep creeping up from downstairs, we’re forever lost in Dystopia, but who cares? All these charging words I could never say to you, are gone with the years now, but somehow I miss you. Break down the walls, they’ll cath you in the rye, one step further, the void comes closer to the edge. Burn the bridges down, all the streets led us the wrong way, following down the road to perdition, what a lonely place. With shattered beleifs and hearts in hands, we’re searching for reasons, ways beyond these ruins. With arms recently raised and gathering wounds, now we demand our tribute for all these broken dreams. The silence of winter is a deafening noise to my ears, these nights drag unendingly and shadows grow longer. I cant’ understand this agony, what is it for? When will I at last find my autumn asylum? |
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3. | From Yesterday to Ashes | 07:01 | Show lyrics |
We walked throughstony paths to avoid this crystal drought of doom, but without taking one single look around we crashed right back in! An episode of life can be recounted in a few trite words, but the reverberations that remain will last from days to years. Daring not to chase all these hours of unique ecstasy, ’cause elapsed moments can’t be repeated, once gone they’re lost. I sing the word hope in inscrutable notes, the same with certainty, I write it in illegible letters. We were the young furious, restless and uncompromising, these songs of love and tragedy carried us thorugh sleepless nights. This is the time when all I was convinced of gains a new meaning, an unknown awareness, a secret life of words. You may say my eyes are empty and my skin is so withered, but unlike a candle my life burns from both ends! This is my answer to a question that was never set, this is my anthem, this is my ode to youth! This is my answer to a question that was never set, this is my confession, this is my ode to youth! |
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4. | Drown in My Nihilism | 06:52 | Show lyrics |
All the decisions that I made, which led me to this place, where not wrong nor right, but urgent! And as far as my feet will carry me and as long as my heart still beats, thi is its rhythm, this is its beat! As the last leaves touched the ground beneath my hands, this summer ended before I could find my way back home. It seems I’m still not ready for this journey to end, but somehow I’m sorry to’ve left you out there all alone... You call it home, I call it isolation. You call it love, I call it a prison of mirrors. You call it security, I call it last respite. You call it life, I call it Dystopia. Once you’ve heard, that these stories could be true, now listen, this one will fucking destroy you: All that’s out in this world is just a lie, except the pain of pure hearts and those sad songs, that make you wanna die... But the sea of memories that devoured me, is not as deep as the lake you’ll drown in. These are my last words, I wish I could burn my eyes, like all the other faceless names bury mine too behind oaken trees... ...and drown in my nihilism! |
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5. | Dancing on Debris | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
Answer me one last question, before I leave this place behind: How could you stay with me for all those years, while living a lie? I know truth is tensile, but was it what we had been looking for? Or could we just find sleep next to each other or in sativa dreams? We just fooled ourselves, it’s so damn obvious! Buildings burn, beloved people die, not even friendships last forever! Sooner or later this apathy will dry up my heart, but I keep on smirking, I keep on dancing on debris! For so many years the only colours I saw where black-white-grey, every morning I felt like waking up in raingarden’s arms. And when every day ends up like this, it’s self-deception to still hold up hope, same reason that I take these pills, same reason that I drink that much! Your glance is as empty as the feeling I get while gazing at cemetery walls, ’cause when I look into your eyes it seems like staring though the eyes of the dead. With the benefit of hindsight so many things were of no lastly use, but there’s no remorse, for me the consequences for you the guillotine! I just turned twenty-four and life is still not getting easier, rather more inverted. it just seems to pass faster. The agitation I feel faces me with no other choice... ...you met me at a very strange time of my life... Again, these painful memories obsess me and indicate, that this is the last chance to leave the sinking ship. Don’t tell me "I love you", who the fuck do you think you are? Spare me the lies, you don’t even know who I am! Two times I already collapsed in pulling the trigger, the next shot won’t be the third, at most the lst. You won’t succeed in lightening up the sky again, ’cause after drowning the light the stars are finally dead now!!! |
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37:29 |
Aokigahara
Album versions
Release date | Label | Catalog ID | Format | Description |
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April 21st, 2014 | AOP Records | AOP011 | CD | Digipak, Limited edition |
April 21st, 2014 | AOP Records | AOP2014 | 2 12" vinyls | Limited edition |
April 21st, 2014 | AOP Records | Digital |
Members | |
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Seuche | Vocals (track 2) |
Torsten | Vocals (track 6) |
Eklatanz | Vocals (track 7) |
Plague | Vocals (track 4) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
Tracks | |||
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1. | My Bones to the Sea | 07:52 | Show lyrics |
This life is a river running through cold veins, no calm gasp at all, we’re always panting for air. The irrepealable decision to live and to die young, we said:” Destroy! All we love we leave behind…” Our awful derated state feels like a deathless march of distress. Scraping through this tales was a hazard, so let’s taste the void. I saw it all, from heartbreaking delight to crippling pain. That’s why we left it all behind, you, me and the violence. At least you won’t dry this river and home’s just a place for the heartless, no dear friends at all, just strangers with faded but versant faces. The future’s so scary, but you can’t just run back to the past because it’s familiar! Yes, it’s tempting… …but it’s a mistake! Where have you been??? These long roads apart seem like a promising shelter, a home away from “home”, with a beautiful fierce and a fabulous strut. Sequel we go on declaring war on nostalgia, hours of remembrance, we burn all the nice pictures and do the ashes like coke! All the footsteps we’ve ever left, and the one’s that will follow, are set for just one reason, someday you’ll understand. We take step by step just not to stall, but when it’s over, steal me away and deliver my bones to the sea! |
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2. | Jhator | 06:40 | Show lyrics |
Sundown! A blood-red sunset and the curtain of night devours the light, somehow this gloaming looks like a painting of two worlds that collide. As if you marked it in your dying wish, this farewell couldn’t be a more impressive sight. So these are our last common hours, cause tomorrow you’ll be laid to rest, at first light. The days get shorter, even if I try to shout off my head, weird that every day has its own name but the night holds only one. But also nascent darkness won’t lull me to sleep, since I’ve seen these leeches separating the flesh from your bones, But I don’t care if I should crash these walls like waves, I don’t care if I should all too soon face the end of my days. I don’t care wherever this numbness should lead me. And I don’t care, that I couldn’t care less! Das letzte Herbstlaub fällt, wie Gedärme auf Beton. Die Luft wird kalt und kälter, der Kopf erstarrt im Frost. Betäubt und regungslos, blau und ausgeweidet. Verhallt das letzte Wort - im leeren Raum Would you die for me, if I say please? I’d take this numbness with me to the bitter end! So if you see me stumble, please let me drown! Please take me out! I’m already dead! You know, I walked the path of sorrow once before, so I will depart and nevermore return, There’s only one decision in our lives we can choose on our own: Vultures or worms? |
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3. | Homecoming: Denied! | 08:07 | Show lyrics |
I don’t think we will withstand this trip, along these paths cobbled with shards. To tell you now makes me feel so heavy hearted, but one night, this life will tear us apart. And now that I gave away the stories end, its facts sneak in so deadly slow and subtle. But just that something is subtle, doesn’t mean it’s going to turn out right! This lethargy, so perfectly shaped, continues spiting filth in my face. Steady going on subsisting, outlive this trivial life, although this edgeless dagger is stuck deep in my heart. How sad a fate, even these tidal-washed detonations of relief won’t save me, cause in case of doubt, this landmine marathon will guide me to my early grave. And in spite of everything, someday, I’ll tie this rope to the highest tree and take my life. And as soon as my last cigarette has burned to its end, without turning once I will have left this world behind... Only death is real! |
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4. | 69 Dead Birds for Utøya | 07:05 | Show lyrics |
Sometimes i pose a question to myself, again and again, but I can’t find an answer. You may say I got no sense of humour, but the smile has been wiped off my face. There’s no kindness in these eyes anymore, no ablazing vital spark, and once again I feel so fucking lonely, although I am never alone. Sometimes I feel like I got stones in my stomach, so heavy to haul. All we try to amend should be an appeasement, but falls on deaf ears! There’s no turning back, cause we were born at this ridiculous place, and since we don’t break the circle we’ll be in need of body bags Is all this happening for a reason or just by mischance? Is it true, that we are nothing but handprints on a misty pane? How can we fall asleep while the world is still burning? How shall I sleep, when I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders? How shall I sleep? How shall I sleep? Everytime you think the most stupefying incident in this world already happened, there comes one more. Shouldn‘t this be proof enough for our ingrained failing, prove enough that we should know, this all boils down to nothing? It’s still the same war, in this day and age, we just call it a different name… |
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5. | Parting | 07:45 | Show lyrics |
Yet another tone and these walls come tumbling down on our heads, so that we are finally buried alive, in this dungeon of lies. After all these years, I discerned, I don’t belong here anymore. It’s an ardent desire, all we love we have to leave behind! It’s about time to take leave, please let me tear apart. Even this lethargy can’t restrain me, it may be too late. I’m hungry, I’m thirsty, I’m tired and cold. In this awful state I won’t weather out another winter. We breathed fire and brimstone, but at the edge of the night, everything that was left to say was spewed and scattered over the floor. As well being with or without you guzzles me from the inside, but have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? But if I wouldn’t suffer, I wouldn’t feel alive, dead but still breathing. An avenue of escape, but blurred in this hazy notions. The pain is gone, but I still wear the wounds, They still flare up in heavy snow and glowing embers. But these monuments of yesteryears, will soon turn into scars. Thanks for leaving, so I can finally breath again… |
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6. | Burning from Both Ends | 06:03 | Show lyrics |
I came up to our house, with barren feet and empty handed, you weren’t here in a long time, but your ghost still haunts these walls. Over all these years, we slowly lost each others sight, we tried everything just not to forget, but this life has no clean brakes… So now that you’re gone I’ve got no more reason to croak in this place, Alas this formerly lively area now turned out just bleak and lonesome. So why should I stay, why should I scrape a living by disgrace, When almost every other spot in this world seems to have more meaning than this one? I keep on starring at these blank walls, where our pictures hung, as they indicate: My former home became a grave! „I am happy“, is something we haven’t said for a while, we didn’t succed to win this fight together, but at least we tried! At least I tried! All these sore memories, hidden in a heartshaped-box, which I buried so deep, within the power of man. But the day will dawn, when I’m going to rake over their ashes, and scatter them into the river , that once flooded this place. Run as fast as your legs will carry you away from me, I just brought you misfortune and the sands of time are running out. But with every minute that’s elapsing, the spleen is decreasing, and when a few years have past, you won’t be able to recall my face… |
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7. | Panoptycon | 07:19 | Show lyrics |
Listen folks: Nothing in this world worth having comes easy at all, For every decision that comes to our mind, we pay the price. What hereafter will wait for us, only the ocean knows, but you can be everything but certain, I paid the price for every word I dropped. Needless to say, my constant fear of separation, is actually not disappearing, Still the same reason why I’m depraved of sleep, I’m losing friends and above all: I’m losing confidence! “Forever and a day”, in this case no second abandon, just pure resolution and our final decision, in this relation, we never thought to repent. I can still hear you admonishing me, but slowing down is not an option. I can still feel the rhythm and my heart is still beating, so your presence is no gift, but a curse! You all once meant the world to me, who knows, maybe we’ll meet again at my funeral. Don’t get me wrong, this is no reckoning to the life we’ve lived, but the only thing we share today, is our past. Let me back in! Bleeding hands grab for the last tread, I exchanged all confidence to self-elected suspense, Sometimes I suffer from this life hour for hour, but apart from this circumstance, my voice gets stronger with every minute that falls. Did you ever, ever bleed for something? Maybe these streets would be an easier way to go, without these turns, just going straight. but we can’t choose their course, cause this is how we built those. I walked a thousand miles to escape these barren landscapes, but they are still here. They haunt me like shadows, cause this endless melancholy is my oldest fear. |
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8. | Nailgarden | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
It must have been years since we sat next to these autumn fires, as nothing had happened since, but anyway, it’s too far gone. We shouldn’t have let the grass grow under our feet all summer long, cause no one owns this moments, as far as I know, they just last for a while. And I still wonder, why this journey finds no end again, finds no goal. Godspeed! But we will never arrive together at the same time. Sad to say, that some of us won’t find their way, find no kind of home, so if I’m not coming home tonight, you will know that I’m gone. I’ve heard all these old stories, so please, tell me something new, I heard it all far too often, that I already know the end. And now I try to attach as much wordly wisdom as I know, in just one song, but the answer ‘s still a riddle, or almost a fucking lie! This was the bloom of our youth and autumn’s coming soon. Whoever has no home now, will not build one anymore. Have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? Yeah, this is my human garbage, spread on the tracks of life, You still search for a reason? Maybe the train was on time?! Last words? A final answer? Apologies? I have none… Love has always been the word for farewell and parting! |
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9. | Gallows (Give ’Em Rope) | 06:08 | Show lyrics |
They caught us near the street, like deer that takes refuge to the dark. Always in our backs they snapped us in our weakest moments. With broken legs you can’t run that far, they’ll obtain you fast, and take aware to hear what they mean, cause usually they speak with knives They speak with knives! Voices sounding like an empty orchestra that plays the soundtrack of our lies, every single note they bow or wind feels like a thorn in skin. In the end this journey was anything else but successful, one bridge too far, we searched for freedom and found nothing but a cold tomb! At least we found nothing but a cold tomb! To narrate retroperspectively, I never thought this trip could end up in chains, somehow we always thought, that we’d be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! We should be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! And once again I’m calling the rain, to wash away this dry fields of grief, to wash away my bones and all I’ve ever feared. Everything I know for sure is that time’s a mirror itself, Somewhere along the way also the good times have to come to an end. Outside these walls I can see how night divides the day, and as the dawn falls I remember: Death always remained more perfect than life. After a while they screamed: Give ‘em blades to dig up their own graves! The dawn marked their beginning, the dawn marks the end. Give ‘em rope! |
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01:04:05 |
Wooden Tape Box
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1. | Harakiri for the Sky | 43:37 | Hide disc notes |
A1 Lungs Filled with Water A2 02:19 AM, Psychosis A3 From Yesterday to Ashes B1 Drown In My Nihilism B2 Dancing on Debris B3 Shadowman (K’s Choice cover) |
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2. | Aokigahara | 01:09:33 | Hide disc notes |
A1 My Bones to the Sea A2 Jhator A3 Homecoming: Denied! A4 69 Dead Birds for Utøya A5 Parting B1 Burning from Both Ends B2 Panoptycon B3 Nailgarden B4 Gallows (Give ’Em Rope) B5 Mad World (Tears for Fears cover) |
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01:53:10 |
Calling the Rain
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art |
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1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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11:28 |
III: Trauma
Album versions
Release date | Label | Catalog ID | Format | Description |
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July 22nd, 2016 | AOP Records | 1067254AOP | CD | Cross-shaped digipak |
July 22nd, 2016 | AOP Records | 1067255AOP | Vinyl | Limited edition |
July 22nd, 2016 | AOP Records | Digital | ||
2016 | AOP Records | 2 vinyls | Gatefold, Half black half white vinyl | |
October 21st, 2016 | AOP Records | 2 vinyls | Gatefold | |
October 21st, 2016 | AOP Records | 2 vinyls | Gatefold, White vinyl, Limited | |
February 7th, 2017 | Razorbleed Productions | RB20 | Cassette | Wooden Box Set |
December 2020 | Sphera Noctis Records | CD | Slipcase |
Members | |
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
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1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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5. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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6. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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7. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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8. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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01:15:13 |
Arson
Album versions
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February 16th, 2018 | AOP Records | CD | Digibook | |
February 16th, 2018 | AOP Records | CD | Boxset | |
February 16th, 2018 | AOP Records | Digital | Bandcamp | |
February 16th, 2018 | AOP Records | 2 12" vinyls | Gatefold | |
February 16th, 2018 | AOP Records | 2 12" vinyls | Deluxe edition, Gatefold | |
August 7th, 2020 | Sphera Noctis Records | SNRCD-025 | CD | Slipcase |
Members | |
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting, Arrangements |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Krist Mort | Photography |
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1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Show lyrics |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Show lyrics |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Show lyrics |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Show lyrics |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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5. | Tomb Omnia | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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6. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Show lyrics |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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7. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Show lyrics |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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01:06:36 |
Mære
Album versions
Release date | Label | Catalog ID | Format | Description |
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January 29th, 2021 | AOP Records | CD | Mediabook double CD | |
January 29th, 2021 | AOP Records | Vinyl | Gatefold double LP | |
January 29th, 2021 | AOP Records | 2CD | Limited wooden CD boxset | |
January 29th, 2021 | AOP Records | Vinyl | Limited wooden vinyl boxset | |
February 16th, 2021 | AOP Records | Digital |
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M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Neige | Vocals (additional, track 2) |
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1. | I, Pallbearer | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There’s a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I’m still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I’ll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you’d die And I’m totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It’s me who should be dead, not you... |
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2. | Sing for the Damage We’ve Done | 08:05 | Show lyrics |
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do |
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4. | I’m All About the Dusk | ||
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5. | Three Empty Words | ||
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6. | Once upon a Winter | ||
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7. | And Oceans Between Us | 08:57 | Show lyrics |
You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love |
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8. | Silver Needle // Golden Dawn | ||
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9. | Time Is a Ghost | ||
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10. | Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) | ||
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24:08 |
Harakiri for the Sky
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M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
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1. | Lungs Filled with Water | 07:50 | Show lyrics |
Capture the horizon, dry tears with stale wine, try to turn thoughts into letters, scream as loud as you can! This empty streets seem like a grace of wounded hearts to me, just a few hours more to come and they’ll enter their long expected target. An unending story of renunciation, my sacrifice, once offered to this dying love as my last, final gift. In sooner days we thought, that in forgetting we could set ourselves free, and you know as well as I do, that from now on, there’s nothing that can stop me anymore... The ones who live by hope, will soon die by disappointment, so let’s stop pretending, you know it was the best decision to part our ways. Farewells can get quite nasty, that’s why I disappeared silently, to say good bye is still the best information we can ever share. An endless dawn slowly fades the end of the night, as former enstrangement again defeats me from behind. There’s no denying, that without you I’m nothing, but also with you I am still alone... FUCK THIS BROKEN HEART! The distance between us feels as far as an ocean, when I attempt to traverse it, the raging waves wash me back ashore. I tried so hard to reach the other side, but I lost consciousness, ’cause I don’t know how to breathe, when my lungs are filled with water... |
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2. | 02:19 AM, Psychosis | 07:37 | Show lyrics |
This city is a no man’s land and I’m in the middle, still stuck somewhere between last night and disturbing dreams. Lost in locked up rooms, these walls feel like a casket, from one moment to the other the dreams become my life. Silent tappings keep creeping up from downstairs, we’re forever lost in Dystopia, but who cares? All these charging words I could never say to you, are gone with the years now, but somehow I miss you. Break down the walls, they’ll cath you in the rye, one step further, the void comes closer to the edge. Burn the bridges down, all the streets led us the wrong way, following down the road to perdition, what a lonely place. With shattered beleifs and hearts in hands, we’re searching for reasons, ways beyond these ruins. With arms recently raised and gathering wounds, now we demand our tribute for all these broken dreams. The silence of winter is a deafening noise to my ears, these nights drag unendingly and shadows grow longer. I cant’ understand this agony, what is it for? When will I at last find my autumn asylum? |
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3. | From Yesterday to Ashes | 07:01 | Show lyrics |
We walked throughstony paths to avoid this crystal drought of doom, but without taking one single look around we crashed right back in! An episode of life can be recounted in a few trite words, but the reverberations that remain will last from days to years. Daring not to chase all these hours of unique ecstasy, ’cause elapsed moments can’t be repeated, once gone they’re lost. I sing the word hope in inscrutable notes, the same with certainty, I write it in illegible letters. We were the young furious, restless and uncompromising, these songs of love and tragedy carried us thorugh sleepless nights. This is the time when all I was convinced of gains a new meaning, an unknown awareness, a secret life of words. You may say my eyes are empty and my skin is so withered, but unlike a candle my life burns from both ends! This is my answer to a question that was never set, this is my anthem, this is my ode to youth! This is my answer to a question that was never set, this is my confession, this is my ode to youth! |
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4. | Drown in My Nihilism | 06:52 | Show lyrics |
All the decisions that I made, which led me to this place, where not wrong nor right, but urgent! And as far as my feet will carry me and as long as my heart still beats, thi is its rhythm, this is its beat! As the last leaves touched the ground beneath my hands, this summer ended before I could find my way back home. It seems I’m still not ready for this journey to end, but somehow I’m sorry to’ve left you out there all alone... You call it home, I call it isolation. You call it love, I call it a prison of mirrors. You call it security, I call it last respite. You call it life, I call it Dystopia. Once you’ve heard, that these stories could be true, now listen, this one will fucking destroy you: All that’s out in this world is just a lie, except the pain of pure hearts and those sad songs, that make you wanna die... But the sea of memories that devoured me, is not as deep as the lake you’ll drown in. These are my last words, I wish I could burn my eyes, like all the other faceless names bury mine too behind oaken trees... ...and drown in my nihilism! |
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5. | Dancing on Debris | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
Answer me one last question, before I leave this place behind: How could you stay with me for all those years, while living a lie? I know truth is tensile, but was it what we had been looking for? Or could we just find sleep next to each other or in sativa dreams? We just fooled ourselves, it’s so damn obvious! Buildings burn, beloved people die, not even friendships last forever! Sooner or later this apathy will dry up my heart, but I keep on smirking, I keep on dancing on debris! For so many years the only colours I saw where black-white-grey, every morning I felt like waking up in raingarden’s arms. And when every day ends up like this, it’s self-deception to still hold up hope, same reason that I take these pills, same reason that I drink that much! Your glance is as empty as the feeling I get while gazing at cemetery walls, ’cause when I look into your eyes it seems like staring though the eyes of the dead. With the benefit of hindsight so many things were of no lastly use, but there’s no remorse, for me the consequences for you the guillotine! I just turned twenty-four and life is still not getting easier, rather more inverted. it just seems to pass faster. The agitation I feel faces me with no other choice... ...you met me at a very strange time of my life... Again, these painful memories obsess me and indicate, that this is the last chance to leave the sinking ship. Don’t tell me "I love you", who the fuck do you think you are? Spare me the lies, you don’t even know who I am! Two times I already collapsed in pulling the trigger, the next shot won’t be the third, at most the lst. You won’t succeed in lightening up the sky again, ’cause after drowning the light the stars are finally dead now!!! |
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37:29 |
Harakiri for the Sky
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M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
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Side A | |||
1. | Lungs Filled with Water | 07:50 | Show lyrics |
Capture the horizon, dry tears with stale wine, try to turn thoughts into letters, scream as loud as you can! This empty streets seem like a grace of wounded hearts to me, just a few hours more to come and they’ll enter their long expected target. An unending story of renunciation, my sacrifice, once offered to this dying love as my last, final gift. In sooner days we thought, that in forgetting we could set ourselves free, and you know as well as I do, that from now on, there’s nothing that can stop me anymore... The ones who live by hope, will soon die by disappointment, so let’s stop pretending, you know it was the best decision to part our ways. Farewells can get quite nasty, that’s why I disappeared silently, to say good bye is still the best information we can ever share. An endless dawn slowly fades the end of the night, as former enstrangement again defeats me from behind. There’s no denying, that without you I’m nothing, but also with you I am still alone... FUCK THIS BROKEN HEART! The distance between us feels as far as an ocean, when I attempt to traverse it, the raging waves wash me back ashore. I tried so hard to reach the other side, but I lost consciousness, ’cause I don’t know how to breathe, when my lungs are filled with water... |
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2. | 02:19 AM, Psychosis | 07:37 | Show lyrics |
This city is a no man’s land and I’m in the middle, still stuck somewhere between last night and disturbing dreams. Lost in locked up rooms, these walls feel like a casket, from one moment to the other the dreams become my life. Silent tappings keep creeping up from downstairs, we’re forever lost in Dystopia, but who cares? All these charging words I could never say to you, are gone with the years now, but somehow I miss you. Break down the walls, they’ll cath you in the rye, one step further, the void comes closer to the edge. Burn the bridges down, all the streets led us the wrong way, following down the road to perdition, what a lonely place. With shattered beleifs and hearts in hands, we’re searching for reasons, ways beyond these ruins. With arms recently raised and gathering wounds, now we demand our tribute for all these broken dreams. The silence of winter is a deafening noise to my ears, these nights drag unendingly and shadows grow longer. I cant’ understand this agony, what is it for? When will I at last find my autumn asylum? |
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3. | From Yesterday to Ashes | 07:01 | Show lyrics |
We walked throughstony paths to avoid this crystal drought of doom, but without taking one single look around we crashed right back in! An episode of life can be recounted in a few trite words, but the reverberations that remain will last from days to years. Daring not to chase all these hours of unique ecstasy, ’cause elapsed moments can’t be repeated, once gone they’re lost. I sing the word hope in inscrutable notes, the same with certainty, I write it in illegible letters. We were the young furious, restless and uncompromising, these songs of love and tragedy carried us thorugh sleepless nights. This is the time when all I was convinced of gains a new meaning, an unknown awareness, a secret life of words. You may say my eyes are empty and my skin is so withered, but unlike a candle my life burns from both ends! This is my answer to a question that was never set, this is my anthem, this is my ode to youth! This is my answer to a question that was never set, this is my confession, this is my ode to youth! |
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Side B | |||
4. | Drown in My Nihilism | 06:52 | Show lyrics |
All the decisions that I made, which led me to this place, where not wrong nor right, but urgent! And as far as my feet will carry me and as long as my heart still beats, thi is its rhythm, this is its beat! As the last leaves touched the ground beneath my hands, this summer ended before I could find my way back home. It seems I’m still not ready for this journey to end, but somehow I’m sorry to’ve left you out there all alone... You call it home, I call it isolation. You call it love, I call it a prison of mirrors. You call it security, I call it last respite. You call it life, I call it Dystopia. Once you’ve heard, that these stories could be true, now listen, this one will fucking destroy you: All that’s out in this world is just a lie, except the pain of pure hearts and those sad songs, that make you wanna die... But the sea of memories that devoured me, is not as deep as the lake you’ll drown in. These are my last words, I wish I could burn my eyes, like all the other faceless names bury mine too behind oaken trees... ...and drown in my nihilism! |
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5. | Dancing on Debris | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
Answer me one last question, before I leave this place behind: How could you stay with me for all those years, while living a lie? I know truth is tensile, but was it what we had been looking for? Or could we just find sleep next to each other or in sativa dreams? We just fooled ourselves, it’s so damn obvious! Buildings burn, beloved people die, not even friendships last forever! Sooner or later this apathy will dry up my heart, but I keep on smirking, I keep on dancing on debris! For so many years the only colours I saw where black-white-grey, every morning I felt like waking up in raingarden’s arms. And when every day ends up like this, it’s self-deception to still hold up hope, same reason that I take these pills, same reason that I drink that much! Your glance is as empty as the feeling I get while gazing at cemetery walls, ’cause when I look into your eyes it seems like staring though the eyes of the dead. With the benefit of hindsight so many things were of no lastly use, but there’s no remorse, for me the consequences for you the guillotine! I just turned twenty-four and life is still not getting easier, rather more inverted. it just seems to pass faster. The agitation I feel faces me with no other choice... ...you met me at a very strange time of my life... Again, these painful memories obsess me and indicate, that this is the last chance to leave the sinking ship. Don’t tell me "I love you", who the fuck do you think you are? Spare me the lies, you don’t even know who I am! Two times I already collapsed in pulling the trigger, the next shot won’t be the third, at most the lst. You won’t succeed in lightening up the sky again, ’cause after drowning the light the stars are finally dead now!!! |
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6. | Shadowman (K’s Choice cover) | 06:08 | Show lyrics |
Any time tomorrow I will lie and say I’m fine I’ll say yes when I mean no And any time tomorrow The sun will cease to shine There’s a shadowman who told me so Any time tomorrow the rain will play a part Of a play I used to know Like no other Used to know it all by heart But a shadowman inside has let it go Oh no, let go of my hand Oh no, not now I’m down, my friend You came to me anew Or was it me who came to you Shadowman Any time tomorrow a part of me will die And a new one will be born Any time tomorrow I’ll get sick of asking why Sick of all the darkness I have worn Any time tomorrow I will try to do what’s right Making sense of all I can Any time tomorrow I’ll pretend to see the light I just might Shadowman Oh here’s the sun again Isn’t it appealing to recline Get blinded and to go into the light again Doesn’t it make you sad To see so much love denied See nothing but a shadowman inside [Chorus] Oh, if you’re coming down to rescue me Now would be perfect Please, if you’re coming down to rescue me Now would be perfect |
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43:37 |
Aokigahara
Members | |
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M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Seuche | Vocals (track 2) |
Torsten | Vocals (track 6) |
Eklatanz | Vocals (track 7) |
Plague | Vocals (track 4) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
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1. | My Bones to the Sea | 07:52 | Show lyrics |
This life is a river running through cold veins, no calm gasp at all, we’re always panting for air. The irrepealable decision to live and to die young, we said:” Destroy! All we love we leave behind…” Our awful derated state feels like a deathless march of distress. Scraping through this tales was a hazard, so let’s taste the void. I saw it all, from heartbreaking delight to crippling pain. That’s why we left it all behind, you, me and the violence. At least you won’t dry this river and home’s just a place for the heartless, no dear friends at all, just strangers with faded but versant faces. The future’s so scary, but you can’t just run back to the past because it’s familiar! Yes, it’s tempting… …but it’s a mistake! Where have you been??? These long roads apart seem like a promising shelter, a home away from “home”, with a beautiful fierce and a fabulous strut. Sequel we go on declaring war on nostalgia, hours of remembrance, we burn all the nice pictures and do the ashes like coke! All the footsteps we’ve ever left, and the one’s that will follow, are set for just one reason, someday you’ll understand. We take step by step just not to stall, but when it’s over, steal me away and deliver my bones to the sea! |
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2. | Jhator | 06:40 | Show lyrics |
Sundown! A blood-red sunset and the curtain of night devours the light, somehow this gloaming looks like a painting of two worlds that collide. As if you marked it in your dying wish, this farewell couldn’t be a more impressive sight. So these are our last common hours, cause tomorrow you’ll be laid to rest, at first light. The days get shorter, even if I try to shout off my head, weird that every day has its own name but the night holds only one. But also nascent darkness won’t lull me to sleep, since I’ve seen these leeches separating the flesh from your bones, But I don’t care if I should crash these walls like waves, I don’t care if I should all too soon face the end of my days. I don’t care wherever this numbness should lead me. And I don’t care, that I couldn’t care less! Das letzte Herbstlaub fällt, wie Gedärme auf Beton. Die Luft wird kalt und kälter, der Kopf erstarrt im Frost. Betäubt und regungslos, blau und ausgeweidet. Verhallt das letzte Wort - im leeren Raum Would you die for me, if I say please? I’d take this numbness with me to the bitter end! So if you see me stumble, please let me drown! Please take me out! I’m already dead! You know, I walked the path of sorrow once before, so I will depart and nevermore return, There’s only one decision in our lives we can choose on our own: Vultures or worms? |
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3. | Homecoming: Denied! | 08:07 | Show lyrics |
I don’t think we will withstand this trip, along these paths cobbled with shards. To tell you now makes me feel so heavy hearted, but one night, this life will tear us apart. And now that I gave away the stories end, its facts sneak in so deadly slow and subtle. But just that something is subtle, doesn’t mean it’s going to turn out right! This lethargy, so perfectly shaped, continues spiting filth in my face. Steady going on subsisting, outlive this trivial life, although this edgeless dagger is stuck deep in my heart. How sad a fate, even these tidal-washed detonations of relief won’t save me, cause in case of doubt, this landmine marathon will guide me to my early grave. And in spite of everything, someday, I’ll tie this rope to the highest tree and take my life. And as soon as my last cigarette has burned to its end, without turning once I will have left this world behind... Only death is real! |
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4. | 69 Dead Birds for Utøya | 07:05 | Show lyrics |
Sometimes i pose a question to myself, again and again, but I can’t find an answer. You may say I got no sense of humour, but the smile has been wiped off my face. There’s no kindness in these eyes anymore, no ablazing vital spark, and once again I feel so fucking lonely, although I am never alone. Sometimes I feel like I got stones in my stomach, so heavy to haul. All we try to amend should be an appeasement, but falls on deaf ears! There’s no turning back, cause we were born at this ridiculous place, and since we don’t break the circle we’ll be in need of body bags Is all this happening for a reason or just by mischance? Is it true, that we are nothing but handprints on a misty pane? How can we fall asleep while the world is still burning? How shall I sleep, when I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders? How shall I sleep? How shall I sleep? Everytime you think the most stupefying incident in this world already happened, there comes one more. Shouldn‘t this be proof enough for our ingrained failing, prove enough that we should know, this all boils down to nothing? It’s still the same war, in this day and age, we just call it a different name… |
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5. | Parting | 07:45 | Show lyrics |
Yet another tone and these walls come tumbling down on our heads, so that we are finally buried alive, in this dungeon of lies. After all these years, I discerned, I don’t belong here anymore. It’s an ardent desire, all we love we have to leave behind! It’s about time to take leave, please let me tear apart. Even this lethargy can’t restrain me, it may be too late. I’m hungry, I’m thirsty, I’m tired and cold. In this awful state I won’t weather out another winter. We breathed fire and brimstone, but at the edge of the night, everything that was left to say was spewed and scattered over the floor. As well being with or without you guzzles me from the inside, but have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? But if I wouldn’t suffer, I wouldn’t feel alive, dead but still breathing. An avenue of escape, but blurred in this hazy notions. The pain is gone, but I still wear the wounds, They still flare up in heavy snow and glowing embers. But these monuments of yesteryears, will soon turn into scars. Thanks for leaving, so I can finally breath again… |
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6. | Burning from Both Ends | 06:03 | Show lyrics |
I came up to our house, with barren feet and empty handed, you weren’t here in a long time, but your ghost still haunts these walls. Over all these years, we slowly lost each others sight, we tried everything just not to forget, but this life has no clean brakes… So now that you’re gone I’ve got no more reason to croak in this place, Alas this formerly lively area now turned out just bleak and lonesome. So why should I stay, why should I scrape a living by disgrace, When almost every other spot in this world seems to have more meaning than this one? I keep on starring at these blank walls, where our pictures hung, as they indicate: My former home became a grave! „I am happy“, is something we haven’t said for a while, we didn’t succed to win this fight together, but at least we tried! At least I tried! All these sore memories, hidden in a heartshaped-box, which I buried so deep, within the power of man. But the day will dawn, when I’m going to rake over their ashes, and scatter them into the river , that once flooded this place. Run as fast as your legs will carry you away from me, I just brought you misfortune and the sands of time are running out. But with every minute that’s elapsing, the spleen is decreasing, and when a few years have past, you won’t be able to recall my face… |
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7. | Panoptycon | 07:19 | Show lyrics |
Listen folks: Nothing in this world worth having comes easy at all, For every decision that comes to our mind, we pay the price. What hereafter will wait for us, only the ocean knows, but you can be everything but certain, I paid the price for every word I dropped. Needless to say, my constant fear of separation, is actually not disappearing, Still the same reason why I’m depraved of sleep, I’m losing friends and above all: I’m losing confidence! “Forever and a day”, in this case no second abandon, just pure resolution and our final decision, in this relation, we never thought to repent. I can still hear you admonishing me, but slowing down is not an option. I can still feel the rhythm and my heart is still beating, so your presence is no gift, but a curse! You all once meant the world to me, who knows, maybe we’ll meet again at my funeral. Don’t get me wrong, this is no reckoning to the life we’ve lived, but the only thing we share today, is our past. Let me back in! Bleeding hands grab for the last tread, I exchanged all confidence to self-elected suspense, Sometimes I suffer from this life hour for hour, but apart from this circumstance, my voice gets stronger with every minute that falls. Did you ever, ever bleed for something? Maybe these streets would be an easier way to go, without these turns, just going straight. but we can’t choose their course, cause this is how we built those. I walked a thousand miles to escape these barren landscapes, but they are still here. They haunt me like shadows, cause this endless melancholy is my oldest fear. |
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8. | Nailgarden | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
It must have been years since we sat next to these autumn fires, as nothing had happened since, but anyway, it’s too far gone. We shouldn’t have let the grass grow under our feet all summer long, cause no one owns this moments, as far as I know, they just last for a while. And I still wonder, why this journey finds no end again, finds no goal. Godspeed! But we will never arrive together at the same time. Sad to say, that some of us won’t find their way, find no kind of home, so if I’m not coming home tonight, you will know that I’m gone. I’ve heard all these old stories, so please, tell me something new, I heard it all far too often, that I already know the end. And now I try to attach as much wordly wisdom as I know, in just one song, but the answer ‘s still a riddle, or almost a fucking lie! This was the bloom of our youth and autumn’s coming soon. Whoever has no home now, will not build one anymore. Have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? Yeah, this is my human garbage, spread on the tracks of life, You still search for a reason? Maybe the train was on time?! Last words? A final answer? Apologies? I have none… Love has always been the word for farewell and parting! |
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9. | Gallows (Give ’Em Rope) | 06:08 | Show lyrics |
They caught us near the street, like deer that takes refuge to the dark. Always in our backs they snapped us in our weakest moments. With broken legs you can’t run that far, they’ll obtain you fast, and take aware to hear what they mean, cause usually they speak with knives They speak with knives! Voices sounding like an empty orchestra that plays the soundtrack of our lies, every single note they bow or wind feels like a thorn in skin. In the end this journey was anything else but successful, one bridge too far, we searched for freedom and found nothing but a cold tomb! At least we found nothing but a cold tomb! To narrate retroperspectively, I never thought this trip could end up in chains, somehow we always thought, that we’d be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! We should be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! And once again I’m calling the rain, to wash away this dry fields of grief, to wash away my bones and all I’ve ever feared. Everything I know for sure is that time’s a mirror itself, Somewhere along the way also the good times have to come to an end. Outside these walls I can see how night divides the day, and as the dawn falls I remember: Death always remained more perfect than life. After a while they screamed: Give ‘em blades to dig up their own graves! The dawn marked their beginning, the dawn marks the end. Give ‘em rope! |
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01:04:05 |
Aokigahara
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Seuche | Vocals (track 2) |
Torsten | Vocals (track 6) |
Eklatanz | Vocals (track 7) |
Plague | Vocals (track 4) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
Tracks | |||
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Disc 1 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | My Bones to the Sea | 07:52 | Show lyrics |
This life is a river running through cold veins, no calm gasp at all, we’re always panting for air. The irrepealable decision to live and to die young, we said:” Destroy! All we love we leave behind…” Our awful derated state feels like a deathless march of distress. Scraping through this tales was a hazard, so let’s taste the void. I saw it all, from heartbreaking delight to crippling pain. That’s why we left it all behind, you, me and the violence. At least you won’t dry this river and home’s just a place for the heartless, no dear friends at all, just strangers with faded but versant faces. The future’s so scary, but you can’t just run back to the past because it’s familiar! Yes, it’s tempting… …but it’s a mistake! Where have you been??? These long roads apart seem like a promising shelter, a home away from “home”, with a beautiful fierce and a fabulous strut. Sequel we go on declaring war on nostalgia, hours of remembrance, we burn all the nice pictures and do the ashes like coke! All the footsteps we’ve ever left, and the one’s that will follow, are set for just one reason, someday you’ll understand. We take step by step just not to stall, but when it’s over, steal me away and deliver my bones to the sea! |
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2. | Jhator | 06:40 | Show lyrics |
Sundown! A blood-red sunset and the curtain of night devours the light, somehow this gloaming looks like a painting of two worlds that collide. As if you marked it in your dying wish, this farewell couldn’t be a more impressive sight. So these are our last common hours, cause tomorrow you’ll be laid to rest, at first light. The days get shorter, even if I try to shout off my head, weird that every day has its own name but the night holds only one. But also nascent darkness won’t lull me to sleep, since I’ve seen these leeches separating the flesh from your bones, But I don’t care if I should crash these walls like waves, I don’t care if I should all too soon face the end of my days. I don’t care wherever this numbness should lead me. And I don’t care, that I couldn’t care less! Das letzte Herbstlaub fällt, wie Gedärme auf Beton. Die Luft wird kalt und kälter, der Kopf erstarrt im Frost. Betäubt und regungslos, blau und ausgeweidet. Verhallt das letzte Wort - im leeren Raum Would you die for me, if I say please? I’d take this numbness with me to the bitter end! So if you see me stumble, please let me drown! Please take me out! I’m already dead! You know, I walked the path of sorrow once before, so I will depart and nevermore return, There’s only one decision in our lives we can choose on our own: Vultures or worms? |
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Side B | |||
3. | Homecoming: Denied! | 08:07 | Show lyrics |
I don’t think we will withstand this trip, along these paths cobbled with shards. To tell you now makes me feel so heavy hearted, but one night, this life will tear us apart. And now that I gave away the stories end, its facts sneak in so deadly slow and subtle. But just that something is subtle, doesn’t mean it’s going to turn out right! This lethargy, so perfectly shaped, continues spiting filth in my face. Steady going on subsisting, outlive this trivial life, although this edgeless dagger is stuck deep in my heart. How sad a fate, even these tidal-washed detonations of relief won’t save me, cause in case of doubt, this landmine marathon will guide me to my early grave. And in spite of everything, someday, I’ll tie this rope to the highest tree and take my life. And as soon as my last cigarette has burned to its end, without turning once I will have left this world behind... Only death is real! |
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4. | 69 Dead Birds for Utøya | 07:05 | Show lyrics |
Sometimes i pose a question to myself, again and again, but I can’t find an answer. You may say I got no sense of humour, but the smile has been wiped off my face. There’s no kindness in these eyes anymore, no ablazing vital spark, and once again I feel so fucking lonely, although I am never alone. Sometimes I feel like I got stones in my stomach, so heavy to haul. All we try to amend should be an appeasement, but falls on deaf ears! There’s no turning back, cause we were born at this ridiculous place, and since we don’t break the circle we’ll be in need of body bags Is all this happening for a reason or just by mischance? Is it true, that we are nothing but handprints on a misty pane? How can we fall asleep while the world is still burning? How shall I sleep, when I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders? How shall I sleep? How shall I sleep? Everytime you think the most stupefying incident in this world already happened, there comes one more. Shouldn‘t this be proof enough for our ingrained failing, prove enough that we should know, this all boils down to nothing? It’s still the same war, in this day and age, we just call it a different name… |
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5. | Parting | 07:45 | Show lyrics |
Yet another tone and these walls come tumbling down on our heads, so that we are finally buried alive, in this dungeon of lies. After all these years, I discerned, I don’t belong here anymore. It’s an ardent desire, all we love we have to leave behind! It’s about time to take leave, please let me tear apart. Even this lethargy can’t restrain me, it may be too late. I’m hungry, I’m thirsty, I’m tired and cold. In this awful state I won’t weather out another winter. We breathed fire and brimstone, but at the edge of the night, everything that was left to say was spewed and scattered over the floor. As well being with or without you guzzles me from the inside, but have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? But if I wouldn’t suffer, I wouldn’t feel alive, dead but still breathing. An avenue of escape, but blurred in this hazy notions. The pain is gone, but I still wear the wounds, They still flare up in heavy snow and glowing embers. But these monuments of yesteryears, will soon turn into scars. Thanks for leaving, so I can finally breath again… |
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Disc 2 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Burning from Both Ends | 06:03 | Show lyrics |
I came up to our house, with barren feet and empty handed, you weren’t here in a long time, but your ghost still haunts these walls. Over all these years, we slowly lost each others sight, we tried everything just not to forget, but this life has no clean brakes… So now that you’re gone I’ve got no more reason to croak in this place, Alas this formerly lively area now turned out just bleak and lonesome. So why should I stay, why should I scrape a living by disgrace, When almost every other spot in this world seems to have more meaning than this one? I keep on starring at these blank walls, where our pictures hung, as they indicate: My former home became a grave! „I am happy“, is something we haven’t said for a while, we didn’t succed to win this fight together, but at least we tried! At least I tried! All these sore memories, hidden in a heartshaped-box, which I buried so deep, within the power of man. But the day will dawn, when I’m going to rake over their ashes, and scatter them into the river , that once flooded this place. Run as fast as your legs will carry you away from me, I just brought you misfortune and the sands of time are running out. But with every minute that’s elapsing, the spleen is decreasing, and when a few years have past, you won’t be able to recall my face… |
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2. | Panoptycon | 07:19 | Show lyrics |
Listen folks: Nothing in this world worth having comes easy at all, For every decision that comes to our mind, we pay the price. What hereafter will wait for us, only the ocean knows, but you can be everything but certain, I paid the price for every word I dropped. Needless to say, my constant fear of separation, is actually not disappearing, Still the same reason why I’m depraved of sleep, I’m losing friends and above all: I’m losing confidence! “Forever and a day”, in this case no second abandon, just pure resolution and our final decision, in this relation, we never thought to repent. I can still hear you admonishing me, but slowing down is not an option. I can still feel the rhythm and my heart is still beating, so your presence is no gift, but a curse! You all once meant the world to me, who knows, maybe we’ll meet again at my funeral. Don’t get me wrong, this is no reckoning to the life we’ve lived, but the only thing we share today, is our past. Let me back in! Bleeding hands grab for the last tread, I exchanged all confidence to self-elected suspense, Sometimes I suffer from this life hour for hour, but apart from this circumstance, my voice gets stronger with every minute that falls. Did you ever, ever bleed for something? Maybe these streets would be an easier way to go, without these turns, just going straight. but we can’t choose their course, cause this is how we built those. I walked a thousand miles to escape these barren landscapes, but they are still here. They haunt me like shadows, cause this endless melancholy is my oldest fear. |
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3. | Nailgarden | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
It must have been years since we sat next to these autumn fires, as nothing had happened since, but anyway, it’s too far gone. We shouldn’t have let the grass grow under our feet all summer long, cause no one owns this moments, as far as I know, they just last for a while. And I still wonder, why this journey finds no end again, finds no goal. Godspeed! But we will never arrive together at the same time. Sad to say, that some of us won’t find their way, find no kind of home, so if I’m not coming home tonight, you will know that I’m gone. I’ve heard all these old stories, so please, tell me something new, I heard it all far too often, that I already know the end. And now I try to attach as much wordly wisdom as I know, in just one song, but the answer ‘s still a riddle, or almost a fucking lie! This was the bloom of our youth and autumn’s coming soon. Whoever has no home now, will not build one anymore. Have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? Yeah, this is my human garbage, spread on the tracks of life, You still search for a reason? Maybe the train was on time?! Last words? A final answer? Apologies? I have none… Love has always been the word for farewell and parting! |
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Side B | |||
4. | Gallows (Give ’Em Rope) | 06:08 | Show lyrics |
They caught us near the street, like deer that takes refuge to the dark. Always in our backs they snapped us in our weakest moments. With broken legs you can’t run that far, they’ll obtain you fast, and take aware to hear what they mean, cause usually they speak with knives They speak with knives! Voices sounding like an empty orchestra that plays the soundtrack of our lies, every single note they bow or wind feels like a thorn in skin. In the end this journey was anything else but successful, one bridge too far, we searched for freedom and found nothing but a cold tomb! At least we found nothing but a cold tomb! To narrate retroperspectively, I never thought this trip could end up in chains, somehow we always thought, that we’d be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! We should be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! And once again I’m calling the rain, to wash away this dry fields of grief, to wash away my bones and all I’ve ever feared. Everything I know for sure is that time’s a mirror itself, Somewhere along the way also the good times have to come to an end. Outside these walls I can see how night divides the day, and as the dawn falls I remember: Death always remained more perfect than life. After a while they screamed: Give ‘em blades to dig up their own graves! The dawn marked their beginning, the dawn marks the end. Give ‘em rope! |
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5. | Mad World (Tears for Fears cover) | 05:28 | Show lyrics |
All around me are familiar faces Worn out places Worn out faces Bright and early for their daily races Going nowhere Going nowhere Their tears are filling up their glasses No expression No expression Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow No tomorrow No tomorrow And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had I find it hard to tell you I find it hard to take When people run in circles it’s a very very Mad world Mad world Mad world Mad world Children waiting for the day they feel good Happy birthday Happy birthday And to feel the way that every child should Sit and listen Sit and listen Went to school and I was very nervous No one knew me No one knew me Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson Look right through me Look right through me And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had I find it hard to tell you ’Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles it’s a very very Mad world Mad world Mad World Mad world And I find it kind of funny I find it kind of sad The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had I find it hard to tell you ’Cos I find it hard to take When people run in circles it’s a very very Mad world Mad world Halargian world Mad world |
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32:04 |
Aokigahara
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M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Seuche | Vocals (track 2) |
Torsten | Vocals (track 6) |
Eklatanz | Vocals (track 7) |
Plague | Vocals (track 4) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Tristan Svart | Layout |
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1. | My Bones to the Sea | 07:52 | Show lyrics |
This life is a river running through cold veins, no calm gasp at all, we’re always panting for air. The irrepealable decision to live and to die young, we said:” Destroy! All we love we leave behind…” Our awful derated state feels like a deathless march of distress. Scraping through this tales was a hazard, so let’s taste the void. I saw it all, from heartbreaking delight to crippling pain. That’s why we left it all behind, you, me and the violence. At least you won’t dry this river and home’s just a place for the heartless, no dear friends at all, just strangers with faded but versant faces. The future’s so scary, but you can’t just run back to the past because it’s familiar! Yes, it’s tempting… …but it’s a mistake! Where have you been??? These long roads apart seem like a promising shelter, a home away from “home”, with a beautiful fierce and a fabulous strut. Sequel we go on declaring war on nostalgia, hours of remembrance, we burn all the nice pictures and do the ashes like coke! All the footsteps we’ve ever left, and the one’s that will follow, are set for just one reason, someday you’ll understand. We take step by step just not to stall, but when it’s over, steal me away and deliver my bones to the sea! |
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2. | Jhator | 06:40 | Show lyrics |
Sundown! A blood-red sunset and the curtain of night devours the light, somehow this gloaming looks like a painting of two worlds that collide. As if you marked it in your dying wish, this farewell couldn’t be a more impressive sight. So these are our last common hours, cause tomorrow you’ll be laid to rest, at first light. The days get shorter, even if I try to shout off my head, weird that every day has its own name but the night holds only one. But also nascent darkness won’t lull me to sleep, since I’ve seen these leeches separating the flesh from your bones, But I don’t care if I should crash these walls like waves, I don’t care if I should all too soon face the end of my days. I don’t care wherever this numbness should lead me. And I don’t care, that I couldn’t care less! Das letzte Herbstlaub fällt, wie Gedärme auf Beton. Die Luft wird kalt und kälter, der Kopf erstarrt im Frost. Betäubt und regungslos, blau und ausgeweidet. Verhallt das letzte Wort - im leeren Raum Would you die for me, if I say please? I’d take this numbness with me to the bitter end! So if you see me stumble, please let me drown! Please take me out! I’m already dead! You know, I walked the path of sorrow once before, so I will depart and nevermore return, There’s only one decision in our lives we can choose on our own: Vultures or worms? |
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3. | Homecoming: Denied! | 08:07 | Show lyrics |
I don’t think we will withstand this trip, along these paths cobbled with shards. To tell you now makes me feel so heavy hearted, but one night, this life will tear us apart. And now that I gave away the stories end, its facts sneak in so deadly slow and subtle. But just that something is subtle, doesn’t mean it’s going to turn out right! This lethargy, so perfectly shaped, continues spiting filth in my face. Steady going on subsisting, outlive this trivial life, although this edgeless dagger is stuck deep in my heart. How sad a fate, even these tidal-washed detonations of relief won’t save me, cause in case of doubt, this landmine marathon will guide me to my early grave. And in spite of everything, someday, I’ll tie this rope to the highest tree and take my life. And as soon as my last cigarette has burned to its end, without turning once I will have left this world behind... Only death is real! |
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4. | 69 Dead Birds for Utøya | 07:05 | Show lyrics |
Sometimes i pose a question to myself, again and again, but I can’t find an answer. You may say I got no sense of humour, but the smile has been wiped off my face. There’s no kindness in these eyes anymore, no ablazing vital spark, and once again I feel so fucking lonely, although I am never alone. Sometimes I feel like I got stones in my stomach, so heavy to haul. All we try to amend should be an appeasement, but falls on deaf ears! There’s no turning back, cause we were born at this ridiculous place, and since we don’t break the circle we’ll be in need of body bags Is all this happening for a reason or just by mischance? Is it true, that we are nothing but handprints on a misty pane? How can we fall asleep while the world is still burning? How shall I sleep, when I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders? How shall I sleep? How shall I sleep? Everytime you think the most stupefying incident in this world already happened, there comes one more. Shouldn‘t this be proof enough for our ingrained failing, prove enough that we should know, this all boils down to nothing? It’s still the same war, in this day and age, we just call it a different name… |
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5. | Parting | 07:45 | Show lyrics |
Yet another tone and these walls come tumbling down on our heads, so that we are finally buried alive, in this dungeon of lies. After all these years, I discerned, I don’t belong here anymore. It’s an ardent desire, all we love we have to leave behind! It’s about time to take leave, please let me tear apart. Even this lethargy can’t restrain me, it may be too late. I’m hungry, I’m thirsty, I’m tired and cold. In this awful state I won’t weather out another winter. We breathed fire and brimstone, but at the edge of the night, everything that was left to say was spewed and scattered over the floor. As well being with or without you guzzles me from the inside, but have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? But if I wouldn’t suffer, I wouldn’t feel alive, dead but still breathing. An avenue of escape, but blurred in this hazy notions. The pain is gone, but I still wear the wounds, They still flare up in heavy snow and glowing embers. But these monuments of yesteryears, will soon turn into scars. Thanks for leaving, so I can finally breath again… |
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6. | Burning from Both Ends | 06:03 | Show lyrics |
I came up to our house, with barren feet and empty handed, you weren’t here in a long time, but your ghost still haunts these walls. Over all these years, we slowly lost each others sight, we tried everything just not to forget, but this life has no clean brakes… So now that you’re gone I’ve got no more reason to croak in this place, Alas this formerly lively area now turned out just bleak and lonesome. So why should I stay, why should I scrape a living by disgrace, When almost every other spot in this world seems to have more meaning than this one? I keep on starring at these blank walls, where our pictures hung, as they indicate: My former home became a grave! „I am happy“, is something we haven’t said for a while, we didn’t succed to win this fight together, but at least we tried! At least I tried! All these sore memories, hidden in a heartshaped-box, which I buried so deep, within the power of man. But the day will dawn, when I’m going to rake over their ashes, and scatter them into the river , that once flooded this place. Run as fast as your legs will carry you away from me, I just brought you misfortune and the sands of time are running out. But with every minute that’s elapsing, the spleen is decreasing, and when a few years have past, you won’t be able to recall my face… |
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7. | Panoptycon | 07:19 | Show lyrics |
Listen folks: Nothing in this world worth having comes easy at all, For every decision that comes to our mind, we pay the price. What hereafter will wait for us, only the ocean knows, but you can be everything but certain, I paid the price for every word I dropped. Needless to say, my constant fear of separation, is actually not disappearing, Still the same reason why I’m depraved of sleep, I’m losing friends and above all: I’m losing confidence! “Forever and a day”, in this case no second abandon, just pure resolution and our final decision, in this relation, we never thought to repent. I can still hear you admonishing me, but slowing down is not an option. I can still feel the rhythm and my heart is still beating, so your presence is no gift, but a curse! You all once meant the world to me, who knows, maybe we’ll meet again at my funeral. Don’t get me wrong, this is no reckoning to the life we’ve lived, but the only thing we share today, is our past. Let me back in! Bleeding hands grab for the last tread, I exchanged all confidence to self-elected suspense, Sometimes I suffer from this life hour for hour, but apart from this circumstance, my voice gets stronger with every minute that falls. Did you ever, ever bleed for something? Maybe these streets would be an easier way to go, without these turns, just going straight. but we can’t choose their course, cause this is how we built those. I walked a thousand miles to escape these barren landscapes, but they are still here. They haunt me like shadows, cause this endless melancholy is my oldest fear. |
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8. | Nailgarden | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
It must have been years since we sat next to these autumn fires, as nothing had happened since, but anyway, it’s too far gone. We shouldn’t have let the grass grow under our feet all summer long, cause no one owns this moments, as far as I know, they just last for a while. And I still wonder, why this journey finds no end again, finds no goal. Godspeed! But we will never arrive together at the same time. Sad to say, that some of us won’t find their way, find no kind of home, so if I’m not coming home tonight, you will know that I’m gone. I’ve heard all these old stories, so please, tell me something new, I heard it all far too often, that I already know the end. And now I try to attach as much wordly wisdom as I know, in just one song, but the answer ‘s still a riddle, or almost a fucking lie! This was the bloom of our youth and autumn’s coming soon. Whoever has no home now, will not build one anymore. Have you ever seen happy people with interesting stories to tell? Yeah, this is my human garbage, spread on the tracks of life, You still search for a reason? Maybe the train was on time?! Last words? A final answer? Apologies? I have none… Love has always been the word for farewell and parting! |
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9. | Gallows (Give ’Em Rope) | 06:08 | Show lyrics |
They caught us near the street, like deer that takes refuge to the dark. Always in our backs they snapped us in our weakest moments. With broken legs you can’t run that far, they’ll obtain you fast, and take aware to hear what they mean, cause usually they speak with knives They speak with knives! Voices sounding like an empty orchestra that plays the soundtrack of our lies, every single note they bow or wind feels like a thorn in skin. In the end this journey was anything else but successful, one bridge too far, we searched for freedom and found nothing but a cold tomb! At least we found nothing but a cold tomb! To narrate retroperspectively, I never thought this trip could end up in chains, somehow we always thought, that we’d be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! We should be the arsonists that will set the world on fire! And once again I’m calling the rain, to wash away this dry fields of grief, to wash away my bones and all I’ve ever feared. Everything I know for sure is that time’s a mirror itself, Somewhere along the way also the good times have to come to an end. Outside these walls I can see how night divides the day, and as the dawn falls I remember: Death always remained more perfect than life. After a while they screamed: Give ‘em blades to dig up their own graves! The dawn marked their beginning, the dawn marks the end. Give ‘em rope! |
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01:04:05 |
III: Trauma
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M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
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1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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5. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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6. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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7. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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8. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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01:15:13 |
III: Trauma
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
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1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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5. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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6. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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7. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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8. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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01:15:13 |
III: Trauma
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Tracks | |||
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1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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5. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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6. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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7. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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8. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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01:15:13 |
III: Trauma
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Tracks | |||
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Disc 1 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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Side B | |||
3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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39:15 | |||
Disc 2 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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2. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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Side B | |||
3. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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4. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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35:58 |
III: Trauma
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Tracks | |||
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Disc 1 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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Side B | |||
3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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39:15 | |||
Disc 2 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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2. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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Side B | |||
3. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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4. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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35:58 |
III: Trauma
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Tracks | |||
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Disc 1 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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Side B | |||
3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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39:15 | |||
Disc 2 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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2. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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Side B | |||
3. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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4. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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35:58 |
III: Trauma
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Tracks | |||
---|---|---|---|
Side A | |||
1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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Side B | |||
5. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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6. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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7. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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8. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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01:15:13 |
III: Trauma
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Davide Straccione | Vocals (track 3) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Tristan Svart | Cover art, Layout |
M.S. | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
Daniel Fellner | Mastering, Mixing, Recording |
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1. | Calling the Rain | 11:28 | Show lyrics |
Since the day they called me and I heard you passed away I had no peaceful night, no minute of rest I can‘t hear myself think, no love left for another This first night of winter was unison my own death… Come closer dearest void and choke me from the inside Strangle me slowly or break my neck whilst the fall It makes no difference to me, I don’t care at all Neglect the fall as long as we keep on falling apart! You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Chance had thrown us together and only death can part If my attempt should not fail, a bullet will all too soon conclude Fuck this life! I re-open my scars and fill the hole in my heart with smack and wine And I will lay down my bones at this stone-cold rivers muddy banks One breath left until the void engulfs me One breath left and all belongs to the past You were not my closest friend, but the longest-serving You were my fellow… …or at least you tried. But you died last winter, strung up in the stable They found you in the morning, dead as our dreams… Tonight I’ll get so terribly drunk I’ll lapse into coma For fuck‘s sake! I’ll drink myself into oblivion Cause the only way to forget about you, is to deafen all senses, until deadness eventuates Fuck this life! Fuck… …my life! This was the year of the great depression this was the year I buried myself in the dust of days! |
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2. | Funeral Dreams | 08:59 | Show lyrics |
The poems I wrote for the last few years Were nothing, but vague prophecies But they abode what they promised So be careful what you wish for, you might get it... Some guys, they just give up living And start dying little by little, piece by piece Some guys bury their hopes beneath disrooted trees But most of them just die a wretched death near these streets... My memories got stolen... ...so hail to the thief Irony causes laughter, but laughter causes pain These mountains, one day, will soak the sea But I won’t witness, I won’t neither hear nor see... I can already hear the chains clatter behind my ears I can feel the flames searing all last evidence That we have lost this battle doesn’t mean we’ve lost the war But only when we’ve lost everything, we’ll be free to leave... ...we’ll be free to leave... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death of me... To be homebound will be the death of me... I can never regret, I can feel sorrow, but at least it’s not the same thing I take leave heavy at heart, although it was out of our hands... We shared the thirst of swans in the summer We shared alignment, the lack long after This city will be the death... Will be the death of me |
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3. | Thanatos | 09:21 | Show lyrics |
Childhood ends... ...and all our dear friends leave the town That we were born in and grew up all together Yearling is over, but it’s quite hard for me to be cheerfull about it Cause the loss of secureness beggars my confidence by far Within the end of everyday I get more paranoid By the certainty of mortality and death Lunatic, I know, but just because I’m paranoid Doesn’t mean they are not after me at all It’s beyond me and concerning And just that I know makes me grieve so deeply... ...I don’t think we can start all over again... It’s a safe bet, cause nothing will ever change... Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better ones This happens for sorts of different reasons and most for the wrong Sometimes I’m on the brink to stab my heart Because of this sadness But everything happens for a reason, Whether we like it or not This life dulled me abysmally And crowned me the king of shards Kept sucking me dry Till there was nothing left but a mortal apparel The sons of apathy consigned their souls to escort me They won’t see nor find me among their shadows... ...I’M A GHOST NOW... At least this claiming of death means nothing And also life in a sort is just a fallacy I said before, to love, to die All rigged in advance, merciless devastating illusions What you call love or affection is just a figment Someday you’ll see, I was so damn right... Distorted reflections, daggers cutting lacerations A lifelong tragedy, scavenging vultures! |
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4. | This Life as a Dagger | 09:27 | Show lyrics |
It took me almost a year to come I thought I’d appear here prior Therefor shorter was the time Until I found the place you sleep Our past caught up with me again This horizon of mountains, as always threatening Rose up behind me, anything but well-disposed Like an all shattering orb Well, that escalated quickly, unsurprisingly Cause as we know now, we were raised by wolves So take care if you fuck with the fast The past at least won’t fuck you... Never... ...ever... this melancholy will pass.... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids, don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together and bolt into the rye I destroyed their childhood memories In getting one thing straight And in doing so, I tried to set their world on fire Now I came for your graveyard For the very first time these days Finally set out for a fleeting visit... ...in the dead of a night... I carried this picture for the last two hundredth and eighty days Just to put it near your last smile, so near, but far beyond Then I did all my tweak and sniffed it off your tombstone Oh believe me brother, I gulped it all in one... I’ll never write peace on your wings And let you simmer wordlessly You promised me, that if we leave this place We set free as one But you spoke the words of a coward! Fuck! What have you done?! Now I will smell their scorched earth Until I retire my own worn body... ...or I will finally choke on this city’s mephitic air... Never... ...ever... This melancholy will pass... I set a foot in our city and I feel so relegated The days we lived here as kids Don’t seem too far gone As we hid in these fields together And bolt into the rye... |
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5. | The Traces We Leave | 08:33 | Show lyrics |
I can’t remember why I left my hometown And why I moved to this city, that got me stranded by the tide I wonder who I was those days and who I’m going to be But to secure peace is still the best way to prepare for war This world made me an alcoholic This world makes me wanna die in my sleep This world made me a junkie, dyed-in-the-wool This world made me a razoreater, a homeless fool... No Man is an Island, entire of itself Every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main I am involved in mankind, and so are you Cause we are both part of this vast and moribund clutter And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls Cause it tolls for you and me... ...it tolls for you and me... I didn’t believe you, as you once compared love to flames But I guess you were right, cause both leave nothing but ashes For me, love was never tied to conditions In the end I loved you... ...but I chose darkness... I chose darkness... My dear I lost you, as this city lost me We lost our shelter, we even lost the sea Day after day keeps elapsing, some day we’ll call it years I’m on my own now... ...but every stranger looks like you... The traces we leave are vague, but they still catch sight Sadly, I’m still lost in this city where I shouldn’t be at all It’s hard to wake up from a nightmare, when you’re not even asleep But this world breaks everyone, and afterwards some are strong at the broken places... |
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6. | Viaticum | 08:38 | Show lyrics |
The depressions got worse... ...and I buried all hope medication will change this fact A life a fevre dream is never worth to be lived A life bound in chains, only worth to be shattered I’ll follow these shadows, to become one of them... Save me from staying around like a shadow Save me from straying this maze of void Escort me home mother of dearest demise Cause as a tragedian, I never learned to live! Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty is reasoned on our treasons Not to be free once broke my heart But leaving you to erode me from the inside I wear these wounds like a trophy Cause life’s an only bloodline I got born to this world as a stranger As as such... ...I’ll leave it all behind... Everything great was built upon sorrow Everything weighty was built upon blood and tears But this has never been my idea of living To find what you love... ...and let it slowly kill you! Time heals nothing! Time is just an appeaser! Time leaves the dust of days Bears me as the outcast son! Sleep well my friend The journey has scarcely started Pace yourself! We will still be walking for miles I know the specters That haunt you in your dreams Cause they already Welcomed me as one of them DEATH TO EVERYONE! DEATH TO EVERYONE! We are a generation lost Born just to find all gods dead All wars fought And all faith in man shaken A generation misunderstood A generation in flames The generation of the disrooted And the damned ...THERE GOES ALL HOPE... |
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7. | Dry the River | 09:51 | Show lyrics |
There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry There was way too much water, but these rivers refused to run dry All worlds wisdom lies buried beneath, but these rivers... ...they refused to run dry Disabled and unarmed we are adrift on this sea of life A shoreless tide of disorder, just to perish, just to sink We reach the bottom faster than we thin, we run out of breathe Pass the realm of shades and reach their end, which is death... Oh these rivers of nihil, so called rivers of no return Swallowed and will not disgorge me for quite some time They know their courses leading up the happy hunting grounds They know the time of day, know, dead people won’t return... I’M HAUNTED BY WATERS Drawn together till the end of days My dear, it will find me, wherever I may roam... I feel enamoured, like moths are attracted to flames I’m the deluge, the greatest flood of all, my own nemesis... ...I AM THE FLOOD... DRY THE RIVER... DRY THE RIVER... DRY... THIS RIVER... You can stop now, leading me up the garden path I’m awoken, I see all people behind their masks All these pale corpses hurrying along a winding path Hurrying down these rivers, to their end, which is death... |
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8. | Bury Me | 08:56 | Show lyrics |
I always dared to know you were entrusted to me, For a few years, as my charge, but not my property I always hoped the dawn of days Wouldn’t raze all we edified, I may got dazzled Despite the sun was always hiding from me I hope you’ll find what you were always looking for I hope you find the warmth and the protection I was unable to offer For my own part, well I just hope to find myself again To unearth a long-lost part of me Although I disbelief... BURY ME In these starlit, cold waters BURY ME In these much too shallow graves BURY ME Once more, in the dust of days BURY ME Among this river that once flooded this place This dire tide of disorder once again pulled out the sand under my feet Washed me away and got me stranded here, so far away from home They are waiting for me, they are waiting for the world to end Maybe I disguise, but writing this song made me think only of you It won’t be long, until I will face the ferryman I’m sure he will be good to me, eventually set me free I’m sure I will find peace now, finally eternal rest For cartage, please withdraw the obolos off my tongue... ...AND LET ME SLEEP... In one case I never had doubts My passing will be a violent one I’ll be gone without a warning And all I’ll leave: THIS CRYPTIC LETTER This life deadened everything inside me All that I loved was carried away I must have passed the point of no return Felt like a thousand years ago... ...I’m going home now...! I’M GOING HOME NOW |
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01:15:13 |
Arson
Members | |
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments, Songwriting, Arrangements |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Miscellaneous staff | |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Krist Mort | Photography |
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1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Show lyrics |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Show lyrics |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Show lyrics |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Show lyrics |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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5. | Tomb Omnia | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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6. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Show lyrics |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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7. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Show lyrics |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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01:06:36 |
Arson
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | Songwriting, Arrangements, All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Krist Mort | Photography |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
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1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Hide disc notes |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Hide disc notes |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Hide disc notes |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Hide disc notes |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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5. | Tomb Omnia | 08:12 | Hide disc notes |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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6. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Hide disc notes |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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7. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Hide disc notes |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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8. | Manifesto (Graveyard Lovers cover) | 04:58 | Hide disc notes |
I took out my pen and pad and set to write my manifesto It was a one line poem said don’t let nothing ever get you low Theres a hole open to heaven and I looked straight through We were love drunk, giving like we was living on the bayou Who made these fucking rules and said that I was born to live by Give em hell til I die, don’t bury me in no suit and tie Cause I don’t wanna work for another man’s money Yes sir, no sir, give it to me honey I had a revelation I was told a lie Live to consume, work to buy and then die But truth enters the mind one little word at a time And you can’t shake the smell of the cat on the line Who made these fucking rules and said that I was born to live by Give em hell til I die, don’t bury me in no suit and tie Cause I don’t wanna work for another man’s money Yes sir, no sir, give it to me honey Who made these fucking rules and said that I was born to live by Tell me I’m alive, show me I am human I wanna log off, shut down and leave the room |
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Arson
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | Songwriting, Arrangements, All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Krist Mort | Photography |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
Tracks | |||
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1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Show lyrics |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Show lyrics |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Show lyrics |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Show lyrics |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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5. | Tomb Omnia | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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6. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Show lyrics |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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7. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Show lyrics |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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8. | Manifesto (Graveyard Lovers cover) | 04:58 | |
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01:11:34 |
Arson
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | Songwriting, Arrangements, All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Krist Mort | Photography |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
Tracks | |||
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Disc 1 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Show lyrics |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Show lyrics |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Show lyrics |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Show lyrics |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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Side A | |||
1. | Tomb Omnia | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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2. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Show lyrics |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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Side B | |||
3. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Show lyrics |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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27:01 |
Arson
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | Songwriting, Arrangements, All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Krist Mort | Photography |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
Tracks | |||
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Disc 1 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Show lyrics |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Show lyrics |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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Side B | |||
3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Show lyrics |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Show lyrics |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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39:35 | |||
Disc 2 | |||
Side A | |||
1. | Tomb Omnia | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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2. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Show lyrics |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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Side B | |||
3. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Show lyrics |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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4. | Manifesto (Graveyard Lovers cover) | 04:58 | Show lyrics |
I took out my pen and pad and set to write my manifesto It was a one line poem said don’t let nothing ever get you low Theres a hole open to heaven and I looked straight through We were love drunk, giving like we was living on the bayou Who made these fucking rules and said that I was born to live by Give em hell til I die, don’t bury me in no suit and tie Cause I don’t wanna work for another man’s money Yes sir, no sir, give it to me honey I had a revelation I was told a lie Live to consume, work to buy and then die But truth enters the mind one little word at a time And you can’t shake the smell of the cat on the line Who made these fucking rules and said that I was born to live by Give em hell til I die, don’t bury me in no suit and tie Cause I don’t wanna work for another man’s money Yes sir, no sir, give it to me honey Who made these fucking rules and said that I was born to live by Tell me I’m alive, show me I am human I wanna log off, shut down and leave the room |
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31:59 |
Arson
Members | |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | Songwriting, Arrangements, All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals, Lyrics |
Guest/Session | |
Bernth Brodträger | Guitars (classical) (track 4) |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Miscellaneous staff | |
M.S. | Recording, Producer |
Daniel Fellner | Recording, Mixing, Mastering |
Striga | Artwork |
Seance Design | Layout |
Krist Mort | Photography |
Matthias Ambros | Recording (drums) |
Chris Graber | Recording (drums) |
Tracks | |||
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1. | Fire, Walk with Me | 09:08 | Show lyrics |
How can we forgive ourselves? For what we have become? How should we bear this burden? Displace the things we’ve done? I loved you so fucking much It nearly lasted a lifetime Fuck! I scratched my heart out Just to watch it bleed... I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set your world on fire I wish I was kerosene... just to feed the flames And a bottle of whiskey later I can still recall the shape of your face While I forgot my way home, while I forgot my own fucking name... Who even calls this place home? In the best case it’s a grave with a view I was never really here But the streets still seem to know my name Stay! Never mind the emptiness! Leave! Fire walks with me! You kept a lot of secrets and I kept none I wish I could go back and keep some... I usually keep my sadness Pent up deep inside Where it can fester quietly To become mental illness You were so fucking afraid You might be living a lie Oh poor you... I may have lived like twenty! I wish I was kerosene, just to set myself on fire I wish I was kerosene, I’d burn all we’ve edified I wish I was kerosene, plain to set youself on fire I wish I was kerosene... at least to feed the flames This will never be about life Always about love and death These are the only things that make me write The things that let me bleed, that let me starve The soil below me whispers my name and suggests: You are done here... come home now? Face the triangle of growth, decline and decay Cause the harder you struggle, the tighter the noose! ...the tighter the noose! |
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2. | The Graves We’ve Dug | 10:04 | Show lyrics |
It happened in December In the days when things get sad for no reason Strangers share a drink called loneliness And this city turns into the coldest place Then I keep you in mind from time to time I resist to scream your name out loud I’m sorry I gave you everything I had Without making sure you ever desired it... People get tired of being sad, being pushed aside And then they leave, even though they promised they would not And it’s not as if I did not try, but somewhere between being who you needed And being who I should become, I became a stranger to us both Teach your heart how to cherish the people around you before they depart You know they surely will, if not by a choice, death steals them away And you’ll have the remains of your life to dwell in regrets Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t fill ...and for sure the graves won’t fill... This is the death of our youths The requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didin’t even ask for happiness... just a little less pain Now we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug Perhaps one day we will meet again Two stars colliding for another time Recognizing the pieces of ourselves We left behind in each other’s heart So search for me in the pitch black night When the stars hide behind the clouds And my heart longs for you Whatever you do... search for me Steal my heart in autumn, where I fall in love by time We roam the fields together, counting stars and fighting sleep No, I’m not feeling better yet, it seems I just got used to the words Cause the gallows won’t disappear, and for sure the graves won’t ever fill This was the death of our youths This was the requiem to our dreams Almost thirty summers passed And dropped down on me like fallen leaves No, we didn’t even ask for happiness, no, just a little less pain This is where we sing and drink besides the graves we’ve dug... ...besides the graves we’ve dug... |
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3. | You Are the Scars | 10:36 | Show lyrics |
Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness It took me years to understand that this too, was a gift It took me years to realize you teared my heart through fordable mires But I wasn’t made for shallow waters, my heart is an ocean… And I think that’s where I am right now: Floating, drifting away Too weak to continue swimming, yet not weak enough to give up and sink Leastwise I know now, that salty waters might cure everything Shedding tears… …or to walk into the sea… Did you know, if you hold your breath all too long You will finally sleep forever? Did you know, that I never forgave myself For what we’ve become? How odd I can have all of this inside me And to you it’s just words, another letter??? But what is loss? What is wealth? I am nothing! We are nothing…! We are nothing…! I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black There’s a place in my heart that will never be filled And even during the best and the greatest times I will know it… …more than ever I will know it… …more than ever In another night, in another world Things could have been so different In another night, in another world Things would have been so different I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black I am the mourning You are the scars I am the night Color me black |
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4. | Heroin Waltz | 09:47 | Show lyrics |
Somewhere there‘s a garden of everlasting love within me But I fear that all you can see are the scars that grace my skin These lightless walks will chafe us and just the drugs keep us warm People feel so lonely in the dark, I feel so lonely in the light I feel so sad about the people That never made it behind the bars of their hometown That never saw these bottomless depths That never walked these mires, I have walked Worth the pain that has burned me and scarred my soul For having been allowed to walk where I have walked Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth and back again Under, far beneath, through it, in it… …and above… My dear, the concept of „home“ is such a vague notion As I can‘t stay in the same place for more than three days Once you told me, that I‘ll never find home without leaving But now I saw so many places, I at least forgot them all So I’m lying in my bed, in my house And all I want to do is to go home… I had to promise them that I won’t go, but nevertheless I will leave I’d like to think they must have known that I would do this one day So I hope to arrive at my burial late, psychotic and wasted Cause when it’s about death, I feel nothing at all Nothing but anticipation Nothing at all And I will never regret all the wounds you inflicted on me Cause another two of these scars and the world is dead For how I harmed you my dear… …I am sorry… But as this last summer passed I could no longer bear the pain This was our last autumn and I’ll take the blame …I’m so fucking sorry… …but that’s how it ends… |
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5. | Tomb Omnia | 08:09 | Show lyrics |
You never were aware of me since you died certain years before my birth I’m about your age now, soon to attain the days you lost your vital spark Although you‘re not my father, I’m nevertheless your daughters‘ brother We will never meet in person and I’ll never lay roses, just thorns to your grave It was more than three decades ago they found you close to the woods Your gaunt dead body, held by nothing but this plaited noose My sister was with them, till today she failed to forget To her you will never age, your face will never grow old These days of autumn at least wrecked their lives And in the long run, somehow it too shattered mine There’s no way anybody will get well again And in no way, anybody will be the same again There is this graveyard far up in the mountains We met up there in last winter’s coldest night When mom brought you dewy flowers Like she did in all the years before There’s so much death up there Especially at night Maybe that’s the reason It’s the only place I feel home I can totally get your motives As I know of severity too I was always aware that nothing ends with suicide I was always aware that people die from sadness We move up to the gallows, straight up to the noose In this state of depression there’s no time left to loose So we pour this tree, this life of reckless dedication How couldn’t we? Our coffin’s shaped by its wood I don’t know if you care But your old cabin still guards the gates to the woods It‘s still watching the mountains grow Watching all these years passing by And after death almost seized it We gave our best to fill it with life It still looks the same like back in the old days As you‘d have left it just last June |
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6. | Stillborn | 09:37 | Show lyrics |
I wonder if depression ever ends Or if it will end me I’m still dancing on the edge of the blade Till it cuts me in half Some days I feel everything at once Other days I feel nothing at all So what’s worse? Drowning beneath the waves or dying from the thirst? I dropped my Prozac from one day to the other I do not regret, why should I bother? I just wonder what will happen?! Maybe it will kill me... eventually set me free... Neither do I ask the night to explain I wait for it and it envelops me And so you, me, gloom and light... ...and shadows... are Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belong to you Someday someone won’t be afraid of the lows I drag They won’t stay on the shore, they’ll meet me in the depths I am not dead but also not alive I seem like a ghost with a beating heart Cause death is not the greatest loss in life But what dies inside us while we fledge We are walking away quietly into empty spaces We are trying to close the gaps of the past Cause of all sad words of tongue or pen The saddest are these: ’It might have been’ Don’t charm away my melancholy, it’s everything I’ve got To me it’s kind of death, but I’m forced to keep living I won’t glorify or romanticize what you call heartbreak But nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you... ...was promised or belonged to you. |
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7. | Voidgazer | 09:15 | Show lyrics |
To all those who acquiesced these scars Just because they loved the person holding the knife: It’s getting-even time… …for those I love, I’ll sacrifice… And I’ll slit their throats with the knife they left in my back Some say time heals But I’m pretty sure that’s a lie What they really mean Is that you will eventually get used to the void You will simply forget Who you were without it You’ll forget what you looked like Without all these scars You look like a winter night My scars hold your dreams I could sleep inside the cold of you The hole in your heart that won’t close Your breath resembles the kiss of death Causing my thirst, holding these scars Together we drank merely gangrene Although without hesitation… …down in one… You see, love could be labeled poison Fuck it… …we would drink it anyway Now this river will cleanse away our traces May the bridges I burn light your way Only the injured truly understand the wounded Everything I touch turns into quicksand anyway Sadly this life is my noose… …please hang me higher I am this grave with a view… …the so-called void… So why do you trouble yourself, my heart? Maybe this wayfare will kill us But weren’t we dying anyway? …weren’t we dying anyway? Cause only the injured can truly understand the wounded When everything they touch turns into quicksand Sadly this life is their noose, come on hang them higher We are this grave with a view… …we are… …this void… Thousand miles down the river, thousand winters upstream What were we expecting, what did we bide to signify? You may have been here, but you left the place very early So let me go, let me leave! I never meant to stay anyway… |
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01:06:36 |
Mære
Members | |
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Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Neige | Vocals (additional, track 2) |
Tracks | |||
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1. | I, Pallbearer | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There’s a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I’m still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I’ll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you’d die And I’m totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It’s me who should be dead, not you... |
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2. | Sing for the Damage We’ve Done | 08:05 | Show lyrics |
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do |
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3. | Us Against December Skies | ||
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4. | I’m All About the Dusk | ||
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5. | Three Empty Words | ||
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6. | Once upon a Winter | ||
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7. | And Oceans Between Us | 08:57 | Show lyrics |
You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love |
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8. | Silver Needle // Golden Dawn | ||
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9. | Time Is a Ghost | ||
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10. | Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) | ||
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M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Neige | Vocals (additional, track 2) |
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1. | I, Pallbearer | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There’s a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I’m still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I’ll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you’d die And I’m totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It’s me who should be dead, not you... |
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2. | Sing for the Damage We’ve Done | 08:05 | Show lyrics |
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do |
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3. | Us Against December Skies | ||
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4. | I’m All About the Dusk | ||
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5. | Three Empty Words | ||
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6. | Once upon a Winter | ||
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7. | And Oceans Between Us | 08:57 | Show lyrics |
You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love |
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8. | Silver Needle // Golden Dawn | ||
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9. | Time Is a Ghost | ||
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10. | Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) | ||
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M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Neige | Vocals (additional, track 2) |
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Disc 1 | |||
1. | I, Pallbearer | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There’s a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I’m still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I’ll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you’d die And I’m totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It’s me who should be dead, not you... |
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2. | Sing for the Damage We’ve Done | 08:05 | Show lyrics |
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do |
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3. | Us Against December Skies | ||
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4. | I’m All About the Dusk | ||
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5. | Three Empty Words | ||
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6. | Once upon a Winter | ||
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7. | And Oceans Between Us | 08:57 | Show lyrics |
You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love |
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8. | Silver Needle // Golden Dawn | ||
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9. | Time Is a Ghost | ||
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10. | Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) | ||
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1. | My Bones to the Sea (Alternative Version) | ||
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2. | The Traces We Leave (Alternative Version) | ||
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M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Neige | Vocals (additional, track 2) |
Tracks | |||
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1. | I, Pallbearer | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There’s a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I’m still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I’ll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you’d die And I’m totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It’s me who should be dead, not you... |
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2. | Sing for the Damage We’ve Done | 08:05 | Show lyrics |
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do |
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3. | Us Against December Skies | ||
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4. | I’m All About the Dusk | ||
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5. | Three Empty Words | ||
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6. | Once upon a Winter | ||
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7. | And Oceans Between Us | 08:57 | Show lyrics |
You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love |
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8. | Silver Needle // Golden Dawn | ||
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9. | Time Is a Ghost | ||
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10. | Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) | ||
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24:08 |
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Original line-up | |
Band members | |
M.S. | All instruments |
J.J. | Vocals |
Guest/Session | |
Kerim "Krimh" Lechner | Drums |
Neige | Vocals (additional, track 2) |
Tracks | |||
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1. | I, Pallbearer | 07:06 | Show lyrics |
The view outside my window changed a lot since I was a child Like all the years we buried, vanishing forever Cause also grief is just love with no place to go Like all the years we buried, this place is death There’s a thing you should know about me I am and have always been this deeply sad man So, I am both, laughing and crying at the same time And still trying to discover how that could be I’m pretty sure growing old will kill me Slowly, but steadily, in two different ways As I’m still the one with the saddest smile I hate being bipolar, it’s fucking awesome The firstborn died by his own hands My oldest friend found a rope that bore And I know I’ll definitely also not die By staring out in the pouring rain Nobody ever tells you that emptiness weighs most When there’s a void inside that can’t be filled Cause it’s not a single stab wound that kills me It’s a thousand paper cuts on every single day The heart dies a slow death And all our dreams dash fast But I wonder if you changed your minds The moment you knew you’d die And I’m totally aware that my pain Is nothing when compared to yours But cleaning out your apartment Was way harder than your funeral One more psychosis then I am also finally done Cause the more I sleep, the less I dream And then at night I drink and clean my gun It’s me who should be dead, not you... |
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2. | Sing for the Damage We’ve Done | 08:05 | Show lyrics |
It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If I truly miss what I once called home It’s been so long, it’s difficult to tell If this truly was my longest way home So, sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do Cause with you at my side I will never be lost As my apathy is death Our apathy is death But with you at my side I will always be lost As my apathy is death Your apathy is death You can take my word I wish I would have followed you You can take my word I wish I could have followed you And so we’ll witness how the last days will come and stay And so we witnessed when the last days came and stayed So, drink from the night itself The night no one came home Drink from the night itself But remember me as a time of day Cause you not understanding my silence Makes you also deaf to my words Cause every word has consequences And every silence seems to have too Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things yet to come Sing for the damage we’ve done And the worse things we’ll still do |
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3. | Us Against December Skies | ||
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4. | I’m All About the Dusk | ||
(loading lyrics...) | |||
5. | Three Empty Words | ||
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6. | Once upon a Winter | ||
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7. | And Oceans Between Us | 08:57 | Show lyrics |
You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer And year by year I’m fading away You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you I need to be someone different I need to be somewhere different But who shall we become my dear When there’s nothing left to love Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore It’s not love It’s nostalgia And it hurts to remember how close we once were But at some point in your life you have to realize That some people may stay in your heart But some just can’t stay in your life So I took away from me what I loved most My memories and all the pictures of you I can’t just tell you what this song’s all about But basically, it’s about everything that separates us You were the ailment And leaving was the cure I fell away and I still suffer I fade away and I blame you Watch me fade away Now drink after drink, line after line I poison myself, I poison my heart As there is something deep inside Something that I need to kill Cause one of the hardest things You’ll ever have to bear my dear Is to grieve the loss of a beloved person That is indeed still alive Then sorrow ate me I’m not me anymore Our love became nostalgia You aren’t you anymore The weight of the world is love Under the burden of solitude Under the incubus of dissatisfaction The weight, the only weight we carry Is love Is love Is love |
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8. | Silver Needle // Golden Dawn | ||
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9. | Time Is a Ghost | ||
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10. | Song to Say Goodbye (Placebo cover) | ||
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